Down the nursing-home hallway was an old friend of Mammam’s – but they knew nothing of each other anymore. Anna Johns was a bit more alert than Mammam at this point and, just as Mammam did earlier, she could converse in a chit-chat manner that didn’t always immediately make clear her mental limitations. I visited The Manor with my father and we paused in front of Anna. My father said in that tone reserved for children and geriatrics, “Hia Anna! How are you?” “I’m good. Who are you?” she said immediately. “I’m Rose Topolski’s son, Walter.” No response. My father asked, “Do you know what your name is?” She promptly reached down, took the light blue slipper from her left foot and read the label inside, “Anna Johns.” she said confidently.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
A Violet and a Rose
At first we would bring Mammam home from the nursing home for Sunday afternoon visits but as she began to resist return, those visits became less frequent and eventually stopped. Visiting Mammam, surrounded as she was, with people in similar mental states, was always funny, exhausting and heartbreaking. I remember wanting to go and then, upon arriving, I would immediately want to leave. The halls smelled of living decay, excrement, cafeteria food and disinfectant.
Friday, October 23, 2009
As the Crow Flies
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Shoo Fly Pie and Apple Pandowdy
Memory and communication are similar in that we long to have both in some pure sense. With both, our best gauges are far too susceptible to contamination to make them reliable.
“What’s in them?” My father pointed to two white unmarked pie boxes on the counter.
I laughed and said loudly, “No Mom – he said that that dish isn’t clean.”
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
(re)naming and (re)collecting
My Dad went by Walt, Wally, Vwadje, and earlier in his life, Tippy. It seems that everyone that is my father’s childhood friend had an alternate name - Jimmy Pickles is my favorite. We called my mother’s brother Uncle Buck although his name was Paul. (I was told he was in a gang in his youth – they called him Buck Rogers and part of it stuck.) We called our godparents and family friends ‘aunt’ and ‘uncle’ although they were technically neither: Aunt Peggy, Aunt Pattie, Aunt Louise, Uncle Charlie and Uncle Richie. We called my Mom’s mother Mammam Dando; she was rarely in our company so we referred to her in a manner that mostly served to differentiate her from my Dad’s mother - we just called her Mammam. We called Dad's father Dzjajie. ('jȯ-jē )
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
\ˈsen(t)s\
Howard Hughes died around that time and the earlier made-for-TV movies that chronicled his life and forecasted his death were playing in reruns on Saturday afternoons. Hughes, according to the stories, would separate and consume his peas by size and in order. He would also collect and stock the fingernail clippings and hair he would acquire from his annual personal hygiene sessions. The notion of such eccentric behavior was entertaining at the time. But I was stunned when I realized that the small plastic-wrapped bundles on the door and bottom shelves of Mammam’s side-by-side freezer contained her garbage.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Tharptown
My parents moved out of the apartment above Mammam and Dzjajie’s when my mother felt that Mammam was getting too possessive of my sister Donamarie. They moved to an apartment in Tharptown a couple blocks away from the house I lived in until I went to college. The owners of the house at the time, Dot and Merle Beaver, lived downstairs and the arrangement was not dissimilar to the one my parents escaped. Eventually, Dot who had never had children of her own, became very possessive of my sister as well.
Pictured above are Donamarie, Paulie my cousin, and my brother. It was Jan’s first birthday and they were posing on and near the yellow, gray and black patterned dinette set that moved with them to their next house; it resided in our kitchen until I was a teenager. The original image was taken about six years before I was born in the apartment above the Beaver’s – I think that is Dot’s arm on the right reaching in to make sure Jan didn’t tip backwards. That is probably Dot’s purse on the left. Next to it on the counter is something that only exists in this image and earlier versions of it – I put it there about eight years ago. It is an appliance of sorts with a function that addressed a very specific need common in kitchens of that earlier era and now.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Kapusta-Head
On top of Mammam’s refrigerator – on the edge, just within her reach – was a thing that defies categorization. It was plastic and its base resembled a terracotta plant pot. From the textured plastic that tried to imitate soil in the pot sprung a plastic plant/figure. All its parts were shaped like vegetables but configured to look like a person – celery arms, cabbage head, but yet black eyes with long lashes that looked like no part of any vegetable. It was meant to be funny and it was.
Friday, October 2, 2009
Changing Spaces
My father remodeled Mammam’s house several years before she went to the nursing home. He replaced two double-hung windows in the upstairs bedroom at the front of the house with two smaller awning windows. He chose to place them fairly high on the wall so furniture could fit below and so as to increase privacy; the windows were in the front bedroom of the apartment above my grandmother’s bedroom. There had not been tenants for many years but my father had a plan that would eventually change that.
That was earlier.
That day she heard my father upstairs installing the windows and went up to investigate. “Hi Mom!” my father said, “What do you think of the new windows?”